To say I’m a creature of habit is an understatement. While I do have a bit of an adventurous, wanderer streak for the most part I like routine, and not a terribly great fan of change.
Do you still have ‘your seat’ at the table in your childhood home?
I do. And please don’t bother to suggest that I could sit somewhere else, because I can not. It has been suggested. Some have tried. All have failed. It is my seat.
I like routine and for things to be just so. Unless it is my mess and then I’m okay with it. I like a schedule and to stick to it. For the past two years I have attended physiotherapy the same two days every week. Perhaps it sounds a bit silly, but I like the consistency and the ability to plan. Living in a long distance marriage consistency and schedules have been key in making it a happy long distance marriage. As long as I can have a date, or make a plan for when or where we will see each other next I’m okay. When he leaves and I am uncertain about the next time we see each other it fills me with nervous energy.
When eating out of local restaurants I’m horribly predictable and order the same thing each time. From time to time I try to change up my order, try a special or something new, but I’m always left with a feeling of unsatisfaction – no matter how good the dish it is not what I was expecting or wanting.
Since Christmas when I made a little fuss over my seat at the table I have been wondering about being a creature of habit… Does being a creature of habit allow the room to get outside (to a metaphorical park) clear your head and remind yourself who you are and where you want to go? Or do you become trapped inside, unable or unwilling to change?
As I said earlier as a creature of habit I do not like change.
But seeing as it is a new year (new me, blah, blah, blah) I have been trying to be open to change and less rigid in my routines.
Staring at the browning bananas in my fruit bowl, my first thought was banana bread. Lovely husband was coming home, so perfect timing. Even though I am a fairly crappy baker I am pretty darn good at whipping up a tasty, moist banana bread. Completely down to trial and error and a husband who loves banana bread, but I’ve got the process down pat.
In the interest of kicking this whole creature of habit thing, I said no to the bread and yes to cookies. That’s right friends cookies. My favorite breakfast combo is peanut butter and banana on toast. Yum! And I thought peanut butter banana cookies sounded delightful and thankfully they tasted as good as I imagined.
To keep these cookies on the healthier side I choose to make them with whole wheat flour and tried to keep the sugar and butter to a minimum. Which lead to me learning a baking lesson.. Well two lessons actually. First, when using whole wheat flour you need less than you would if baking with white flour. Whole wheat flour makes for a denser and therefore heavier product, but it is healthier and actually has a nice nutty flavor. Second, the more flour you use and the less sugar and fat results in a cakey cookie (aka my least favorite kind of cookie) but pressing them post baking seemed to reduced the cakey nature of the first batch.
After some trial and error, I corrected my measurements and learned a third lesson that not mixing the dough enough makes for weird lumpy cookies… So put your back into it OR use a stand mixer.
For healthier cookies these are pretty yummy. It could be the flavor combo, but I quite like them as a breakfast cookie. Storing in an air tight container these cookies stay impressively moist for about 5 days.. If they last that long!
- ½ cup butter, softened
- 1 cup brown sugar
- ¾ cup peanut butter, smooth
- 2 ripe bananas, mashed
- 2 eggs
- 1¾ cups whole wheat flour
- 2 tsp baking powder
- 1 tsp cinnamon
- 1 tsp vanilla
- Preheat oven to 350F.
- Beat peanut butter, brown sugar and butter until smooth.
- Add eggs and vanilla.
- Stir in banana.
- Stir in flour, baking powder and cinnamon. Blend well.
- Bake at 350F for 12 - 15 mins.
- Remove from oven, while still warm press each cookie with a fork or grated spatula. Transfer to wire rack to cool.